Last April I had excitedly blurted out to some friends about a few things I planned to do for the summer. I wanted to be able to exhaust myself creatively before I get siphoned back to graduate-schooldome. So I went ahead and thought so hard about what it was I needed to do but without the obligatory list that most timetable-bound geeks would. Consequently, I found myself idle for weeks over mostly because I was consumed at overthinking the logistics involved in what it was I wanted to do.
There's really no harm in that. It's always better to (at least try to) outwit life by planning ahead. But as it is, we all gasp at the very idea of "outwitting" life, we know that no matter how many hours we put out planning everything, we can only wish things happen as we hoped (and obsessively daydreamed) they would. But that's no reason to stop striving to be better at what we do so that we can slowly wiggle ourselves into the dreamland we wish to be.
We get tired. Sure. We doubt ourselves. Sure. That's part of the drill. But when you've thought it through and when you know deep down that what you do, no matter how cursedly difficult, is something that makes you genuinely happy, just keep swimming.
I'll keep my fingers crossed and hope I find the right somethings and someones to help me get through.
Anyway, I hope you all have a happy weekend and remember, stay in love!
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MUA: Mary Dosdos
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MUA: Mary Dosdos
